"Everywhere I go, there I am again..."

So I found this quote and it really struck a chord with me.

Lately I have felt like I have been living with what I call the Groundhog syndrome. Day in, day out, I feel like nothing is changing. I am not changing. More importantly I am not growing. I have been feeling as though I am missing something. What it is I do not know. For if I did, I wouldn't be rambling about it here. The old saying, do what you always did get what you always got I suppose. But what am I doing? That is probably the biggest question. What am I doing with my life?

Over the weekend I ran into an old family friend and the normal question of, 'So how are you? What are you doing these days?' was asked. And my usual response is 'Oh good. Just working that's about it really.' And that IS it. And I am thankful for that. I truly am. To be working these days is a blessing. But as far as what I am doing with my life? Working? Really? That's the best I can come up with?

So I parted with my friend and was left with more self assessment and contemplation. Just what am I doing with my life? Going to work, coming home, exercising, cooking dinner, cleaning, catch the news and then bed. Repeat...THAT's what I have been doing with my life. Occasionally you can throw in 'have a few glasses of wine'.

What am I SUPPOSED to be doing with my life? Living it right? How am I supposed to answer the question - What are you doing these days? More importantly how do I know that I am in fact living my life? Especially when "everywhere I go, there I am again."

Perplexed. Frustrated. Questioning. Searching. Hopeful...

~ B