Friday, December 19, 2008

Snow day for most...and a toast...

Well those of you that live in Michigan are experiencing the wonder of weather today. We are getting dumped on with the white stuff. The weather man is calling for 10-12" of snow today. And so far he's right on. It's gorgeous, but definitely challenge for a lot of motorists. What a ride in! I can't wait to get home and play in it with the dogs and maybe even my snowmobile!!!

Today also marks the one year anniversary for the passing of my girlfriend Cathy. I think maybe she did this for her daughter so she didn't have one more day before Christmas break. She was always looking out like that...

So, later (not now b/c I am at work), I'll be raising a glass and making a toast - 'to the crazy, fun, vibrant blonde that isn't here on this Earth but is definitely with us everyday. You are missed dearly, remembered fondly and this is to you....cheers! Well this one and the next 10 :) Love ya!'

Christmas is only 6 days away, I can't wait!

~Blondie

Monday, November 24, 2008

Life...

Defined on Google.com as "the experience of being alive; the course of human events and activities." But what is it really? And why is it some get to lead a long life, some short? Some easy, some hard? Some stressful, some peaceful?

A year ago in December, one of my best friends will have been gone for a year. She passed away December 17th, suddenly, from a rare heart disorder. She was 40 years old. Her loss was the first for me. Sure I have lost grandparents and older relatives, but never have I lost a close, young friend. It was a very difficult experience for me. And to be perfectly honest, not a day goes by that I don't think of her at some point. Most of the time it makes me smile, but other times I find my eyes welling up with tears. And of course the question of why? never goes away. Why her? Why then? Why didn't she get to see her girls go to college and graduate? To know her grandkids? To grow old? Why her and not someone else?

This past weekend I found myself asking these questions again. A colleague of mine is about to lose the love in his life. She had an accident over the weekend that put her in the hospital with skull fractures, brain damage and on life support. She's 43. Chances that she'll recover are nil. It sounds as though, once her family gets to say goodbye, the life support will be removed and she will be gone...

She was with girlfriends the night of the accident and they had done everything they should have. They were having a sleepover, so no one was driving after drinking alcohol. They had a great party, everyone had gone to bed, and then this. This horrible fall that has taken a young, beautiful, vibrant, loving person from our world. Why? Did she do something to deserve this? Of course not. So why? Why is it this Thanksgiving her family has to plan her funeral while the rest of us sit around a table with our loved ones?

I had these same questions last Christmas after Cathy's funeral. I was just in complete shock. I sit here now and have the same feeling of awe. I didn't know this woman like I knew Cath, but I know a lot of people that loved her, very well. And I know how much this is going to hurt them. What they'll go through on their road to healing. It's horrible.

In hearing the news and dealing with my thoughts over the weekend, I just went through so many emotions. Of course the first was sadness. But immediately following that was gratitude and thanks for the life that I have. And the life my loved ones have. It's not easy for a lot of people right now given a lot of things. The economy, health issues, emotional issues...but at the end of the day - we're alive. And after that, came the question of what are we doing with those lives? Are we living every day like we want to? Or do we just go through motions waiting for the next day? Thinking that tomorrow will bring what we are waiting for? And what is it that we're waiting for? And why? What is that we NEED in order to LIVE our lives?

I don't have the answers to these questions, but I needed to put them out there. If anything to give me something to revert back to when I find myself lost with my thoughts again. B/c if history tells me anything, I will definitely be thinking about this subject again. Maybe then I'll know more. Maybe then, I'll have the answers I was looking for...

In the mean time, here are a few quotes on life that caught my attention...

"How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives." - Anne Dillard

"Gratefulness is the key to a happy life that we hold in our hands, because if we are not grateful, then no matter how much we have we will not be happy -- because we will always want to have something else or something more." - Brother David Steindl-Rast

Lastly...

"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver

~Blondie

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Best Birthday EVER!

Well the few of you that periodically check this for updates know that I was having a difficult time with the idea of turning 30. I know I said I had come to terms with it and even embraced it, but honestly, I was really dreading it...However, let me just say, to those of you that participated in any way - thank you for making this the best birthday ever!!! Here are a few highlights...

The week BEFORE my birthday I received a gorgeous surprise bouquet of tulips and lillies at my office from Laura! They were so pretty and put a big smile on my face...

The week of my birthday as all of you know, Luke and I took our first official vacation. We had our cruise to Grand Cayman and Cozumel. What a fantastic time! Despite the food on the Carnival ship, everything else was great! We had good weather, lots of R&R, luck on the craps table :) and we even met a few really nice people along the way. On my actual birthday, we spent the day in Mexico. Luke took me swimming with the dolphins in the ocean, it was AWESOME!!! After we did that we hit the restaurant for a fabulous Mexican lunch and then to the beach to enjoy the white sand and cervesas :) It was an awesome day!!!

And then came Saturday November 1st...Luke managed to pull off a surprise party for me! Not only did we dine at probably the best restaurant I have ever been to, Coach Insignia in Detroit on top of the Renaissance Center but after dinner we stopped at 59 West to 'meet friends for a cocktail' and I was surprised by my family and friends! It was unbelievable! We walked in and there were balloons and flowers and LOTS of people! I cried instantly. I couldn't believe it. I was so touched. Two nights earlier I was crying on Luke's shoulder about no one remembering and that it was a hard b-day despite it being such a good time on vacation, blah, blah. Basically I was having a moment of reflection and the 'I should bes'...it wasn't anything to do with anyone other then myself. The poor guy had to listen to me vent and cry like a baby. Already having planned this fabulous party. I felt like such a schmuck! But what a great time! People I thought were out of town were there! You know who you are! Old neighbors, long time friends and of course my family. It was just wonderful. And to top it off, he got a limo to take us around in...Icing on the cake. We all had a ton of fun and made it home safely. It was absolutely one of the best days! What a perfect end to a wonderful week off!!!

So that was the start to this decade...not bad huh? Something tells me it's just going to get better...

Monday, October 13, 2008

Countdown...

So it seems I am going to have to change the name of my blog very soon. T-5 days and I am officially leaving my 20's. Of course, that means there is even less time until our cruise! 2 days to be exact. Two days from now we'll be setting sail in the Gulf of Mexico, drinking a fruity over the top cocktail, soaking up the sun and enjoying our first official vacation - alone. I can't wait! I'll have another post about that though...this one is aimed at trying to understand what makes ME happy...

I am much more comfortable with the thought of turning 30. Last year when I turned 29 I was a little freaked out at the thought of crossing over out of my 20's. As time has gone on over the past year I have learned to embrace it and relish in the fact that I get to start a whole new decade in a very happy place. I suppose my fears were mostly due to the fact that for the longest time I was playing the 'keeping up with the Jones' game. You know, watching everyone around me graduate high school, go to college, get a job, get married, get a house, have kids...what I came to realize was, I didn't like that game. I felt like I was falling behind all of my friends and in a way letting them down. But I don't like doing things just because other people are, or think I should be...I see people who did things that way, and I realize that doesn't mean happiness. Doing things to a certain timeline or obtaining 'things' wasn't going to make my life better or make me happy. So I asked the question of what does make me happy? The answers are surprisingly simple and in a way, very complex...

Home. I love being home and doing anything. Cooking, cleaning, playing with my dogs, having a glass of wine and watching the sunset on the porch with Luke, entertaining or doing nothing... Being home makes all of those things that much more enjoyable.

Love. I love being in love. I know, typical girly response. But it's true. I love love. Romantically, I have what everyone should get to have at least once in their life. It took me a long time to finally get it, but ever since I did, I couldn't ask for more. I have found the best friend, the partner, the comedian, the hardworking, family loving individual that I was meant to find that wants to make me happy and in turn I want to make him happy every day more then the next...

And I have love for and from my friends and family as well - another intangible thing that means so much.

Family. I have watched my family change quite a bit over the course of my life. From losing grandparents, to dramatic arguments, to new additions. I have been fortunate to be welcomed by and in turn expand my family through Luke's and it's great. Families can be very complex, but all in all should be very simple. Love them, support them and value them b/c in the end, they are all you really have. There have been times where I know I have taken my family for granted and looking back I regret those. They are the times we have lost now. All I can do is go forward valuing each and every opportunity we get together. Whether that be an email, a phone call, a dinner, a vacation... Big or small, never take that time for granted.

Success. Success in anything big or small is something that makes me happy. If it's succeeding in working out as much as I want, or achieving a certain goal at work, or financially, success fuels me. I have worked very hard to get where I am and I have had much success in my life. Each success has made me a stronger, more confident, happier person.

So those are the very simple yet very complex things that contribute to my happiness. At this point in my life, I am in a very happy, very comfortable, very blessed place...

Monday, September 8, 2008

More Farm pics...

Hale Haus first timers...
Umm, what is the name of this drink?
The Ole' Man and his Dad
Chef Larry's pizza! YUM-O!
How you feel after a long weekend at the Hale Haus and playing on the river. Our tired little girl!

Pics from 'the Farm'...

Lance on a big bike...sike! It's actually Luke! With Bruno close behind!
Hale Haus Saloon
Mmmmm! Natty Light & Chef Larry's Pizza!
A show off and a stopee...
Superdog :)

September...already?

WOW! Can you believe that it's September already? Gosh time has been flying by! Weekends have continued to be packed with activities and fun. Mondays become Friday's before you know it, and that is a great thing!!! And like most who live in this state, I am welcoming the fall! The cooler nights, the changing colors, the crisp distinct smell in the air and of course bon fires! I love it!!! But before welcoming the fall I should re-cap the end of our 2008 summer. We have done so much that I want to make sure to capture it and share the memories...

August was filled with lots of fun events. To start the month we had the Kenny Chesney concert. Talk about a party! I scored floor tickets this year so I was SO excited to go. We tailgated with Katie and Lance and a few friends before the concert which was a first. We were staying downtown at the Hilton Garden Inn. Talk about convenient! It was two blocks from Ford Field where the show was. So we whooped it up beforehand, which for some, Luke, wasn't such a good idea. He was having so much fun on an empty stomach that he had to take a 'nap' while the show was going on...long and short of that was he did make it in to see Kenny perform, but he missed all the other acts. Leann Rhimes, Keith Urban, Gary Allen (sp?)...lessons learned - hearty breakfast beforehand, less jello & pudding shots, and pace yourself!!! As I said a few times that day, Kenny Chesney shows are a marathon NOT a sprint!

So that was the first weekend in August. The second weekend we took it easy on Friday night, Luke worked Saturday then we hit a few summer parties. That day we had three parties to go to! We went to an annual corn roast for a bit with a few guys Luke works with and then we were off to a huge 40th surprise party in Ortonville that another work friend Lick, was throwing for his g/f. Talk about a party! They had a well known band, a HUGE fire pit, tents, outhouses, food was plentiful a full bar AND an ice louge for shots! All in all a very cool party. We got there about 11 and left about 1:30 or so. It was a late night though b/c of the hike home.

Then let's see...the weekend after that we were home for the most part. Eric and Lisa came over for dinner and cocktails. Later that night we hit a going away party for JD a friend that was moving to California. Lisa and I were the beer pong champs of the evening! Well, we won a game so we thought that was pretty damn good...after the party we came back and chilled in the hot tub. It was another 3AM night. Not unusual hanging with those guys. So Sunday was spent recovering and watching movies...

The next weekend was much more busy. Friday night we got our new washer and dryer. We just stayed home, went running and ate dinner. Nothing too exciting. Then Saturday, I took Luke out for his birthday dinner. We went to Andiamo. That was a great meal! The restaurant is so nice, our server was very sweet and the food was great! We couldn't have had a better time. After dinner we went to a friends 30th b-day party for a while then headed home. The night was great until that point...we got home and the dogs had gotten in the garbage in the garage. For the second time in day...not good. So that kind of put a damper on the evening.

That Sunday I had Luke's birthday dinner at our house for family, a few friends and a couple neighbors. We had about 35 people! It's crazy how quick that count adds up. It was really nice though. The weather was great, the kids all enjoyed the bounce house and the slip and slide. We had just enough food, which in my mind was not enough, but everyone ate so I guess that's ok. After everyone left about 8:00 I was exhausted! I sat down with the few friends that were still there and I was done. Shortly after, Luke carried me up to bed! Pretty bad I know. But the party went great, Luke got some very nice cards and gifts (which were a complete surprise), everyone had fun and I was happy to have been the organizer for the end of summer get together.

And last but not least, was the last weekend in August which was Labor Day weekend. We spent that up at the Farm with Luke's family. It was very nice. The weather was exceptional. Sunday was the party day. There were people popping in all afternoon. Lots of time in the Hale Haus... The dogs had a blast tearing around the property, swimming in the pond. They didn't move for a day after we got home. That is pretty standard. All in all a very nice holiday weekend.

Then we went back up there this past weekend for even more...that gets it's own post though. So that was August 2008. OH! I forgot! For Luke's birthday, I am taking him on vacation. We are going on a cruise in October to celebrate both our birthdays! We're going to Grand Caymen and Cozumel. Hence the new ticker at the top of my blog...so the countdown has begun!!! Can't wait!!! That too will get it's own post.

Happy Monday!
B

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

A month gone by...

Wow! It's been over a month since my last post. Time sure does fly! My, where to start? We have had a very busy, fun-filled month. I guess I'll start with the Fourth of July up at the Farm...

We went to visit Luke's parents and family at their house, 'the Farm', in Hale for the long weekend. After we fought traffic to get there, it was a nice relaxing weekend. We visited, ate way too much, drank a little, played volleyball with the neighbors and really just had a nice weekend with his family. The weather couldn't have been better, lots of sunshine and warm July air. We even floated in their pond on our last day there to stay cool and work on our tans. Jess and I were proud of our beep-beeps from the passerbys :)

The next weekend we had a few birthdays to celebrate. My dad's birthday was that Friday, Luke's brother Jason's birthday and his nephew Jaxx celebrated on that Saturday. Luke worked his first OT of the summer that Saturday then we headed up to Linden for the birthday party with the family. After that we went out with a few friends from Luke's work. The ironic part is I knew more people there then he did. The majority of them all graduated from Milford with me. It was surreal seeing all of them in one place that long after high school. It was fun though, we had a good time. That Sunday Luke worked again and I continued preparation for the next weekend...

Speaking of which was last weekend. We had our first party. Luke has had plenty of parties in the past, but this was our first party together with all of our family and friends. Luke's brother Sean and his family were in town for their first visit since last year so it gave us a reason to throw a party and get everyone together. It turned out really well. We had lots of help which was nice and definitely made preparation very easy. Luke and I basically got the house ready and some of the food prepared and beyond that it was a group effort. A few people each brought a dish to pass, most everyone brought what they wanted to drink and then it was just a matter of conversation, which with that crowd comes VERY easily. I'll post some pictures on my picasa site as soon as I can of all of the events from the month...

After our party the weekend with Sean and fam' continued to be one big party. We went out to the Quake on the Lake in Pontiac on Saturday to visit an old friend of Sean and Colleen's, Renee. There are parties everywhere! Most everyone who lives on that lake (Pontiac Lake) has a party that weekend to celebrate during the boat races. People all over, bands, fireworks. It was very cool. I would have liked to see some of the boat races but we got there later in the evening. Which is probably a good thing considering how late we ended up staying. But we had a great time.

Then Sunday it was off to yet another party in Farmington. Another late night...but again, it was a good time. Lots of laughter and more visiting with family and friends.

Monday Luke and I took the day off work to visit with everyone before they left. We spent the day at Colleen's parents house in Livonia. Thankfully, that was a much more tame day. We relaxed in the pool, indulged in Chinese from Lim Star - very good! and just visited most of the day. It was nice. It was hard to say goodbye to everyone, and especially hard to watch Luke say goodbye to his brother. They are very close and now living 700 miles apart, visits are few and far between so when they come to a close, it's tough. No one wants to say goodbye. The good news is they saw how easy it was to come back to see everyone so hopefully they'll be able to do it again in a few months. If not, we should be able to get back out there to NY.

So like I said it's been a busy month. This weekend Luke is working again and we have Gavigan's Baptism. I am the Godmother :) He's getting so big already! 6 months old as of yesterday. Again, kind of the theme for this post - time sure does fly...

Then next weekend we have the Kenny Chesney concert - and we have FLOOR tickets!!!! I am SOOOO excited for that. I have gone to the last 4 concerts, I think this is number 5? And each one has just gotten better. I am excited for Luke to come with me and check it out. Katie and Lance are going too so we'll be partying together. I can't wait!

Allison's birthday is coming up too. The big 2-1. Now THAT is scary. That means that my 3-0 is right around the corner...YIKES! I am ready to embrace it but it's still weird to think of Allison being 21 and me being 30.

And after that who knows. The weekends book up fast and the weeks seem to sail by...all filled with lots of fun, lots of laughs and lots of memories. What can I say? Life if good. We are very blessed and I am very happy :) More to come...

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Watching the grass grow...

So Luke and I have a new and exciting hobby. We have been watching the grass grow....ok, so it's not overly 'exciting' but it's been neat to see the transformation from piles of dirt into an actual lawn... For the past few years most of the yard around Luke's house has been dirt. He put a pond on the property and as a result there were of piles and dirt pretty much everywhere. Grass was something we saw only in the back of the house. A few weeks ago he went out and bought some seed, fertilizer and straw to put down around the house. So, since then, we have been doing just as I said - watching the grass grow. And wow has it grown! I told him he's going to have to cut it soon. The weather has been very cooperative and it's really taken off. It looks great!

Actually a lot has been done this spring/summer. He had a new retaining wall put in, a rock wall built, put in a fountain (still need wire to get that going), had the driveway re-stoned and expanded. I put in my two measily little flower beds. But they are nice to look at when I get home. Some color besides green and brown! And my flowers have liked the weather too! I am just waiting for my lillies to finally bloom. They will be gorgeous.

And we got some good news last week. Sean, Colleen and the kids are coming home for a visit in July! We are going to have party at our house that Friday for family and friends. I can't wait! I am not sure what to do just yet about food but I am sure we'll figure it out as it gets closer. It'll just be nice to get everyone together.

AND there is also news about a new member of the family...Tanya and Jason are expecting a new little one! That will be number three for them. They announced that the beginning of the month at Anderson's 1st b-day party.

Well I suppose I better get back to work...ICK! Found out today I get to work all next weekend for a bank required physical inventory. I can't wait!!! Can you sense the sarcasm? Anyway, gotta do what you gotta do...

Happy Tuesday!

Saturday, May 10, 2008

Derby has come and gone...
















Well we managed to survive yet another Derby. This was Luke's first Derby, and he managed to get a historic one. Not sure if any of you follow thoroughbred horse racing, but the Kentucky Derby is quite a big event. It's one of three races in the chase for the Triple Crown...a very prominent achievement. We manage to go every year and be part of a very exciting, emotional day. This year was exceptionally emotional though. There was a filly in the race, Eight Belles, and after racing her heart out the poor girl was put down on the track after breaking both her front ankles. It was horrible. We didn't hear about it until we were leaving the track and I was so surprised at the sadness that it brought on. I couldn't help but tear up. I mean one girl against nineteen boys for one of the biggest races of the season, she comes in second, runs one of the best races of her career and they have to put her down? How could you not be sad? It definitely took away from the other historical moment that happened that day. Big Brown, the favorite and also the winner of this year's Derby, started out in the 20th position. No horse has ever started from that position and managed to win the race - EVER. In the 134 years of the KY Derby this was the first. So his historical victory was shadowed upon by the loss of Eight Belles...

All in all it was a wonderful Derby weekend. Thursday we rolled into town and hit the local watering hole the Smyrna Inn. Wow! What a place that is. Rita the bartender showed us nothing but the best in southern hospitality. Lo and Dave met us there about 11:30 when we got there and stayed for an hour or so. We however, managed to stay until 3:30...not the brightest thing to do when you have an all day Oaks party the next afternoon. And that was our Friday, we prepared for the Kentucky Oaks, another very exciting race that is held every year on the weekend of the Derby. Sarah Kate and Jon had an Oaks party with a bunch of their freinds and all of us that were in town for Derby. It has become a tradition amongst our friends to do this annually. So Friday we spent the day celebrating the Oaks, making the most of the weather and just enjoying the day. Some of us (mostly me) over indulged resulting in an early night. But the party was great. Food was in abundance as were the liquid refreshments - as always. So that was Friday...

Saturday was Derby day. Time to rise early, make ourselves pretty and get to the track. This year I think all of us girls did a great job on our outfits. The hat is the biggest part of the outfit for Derby. The crazier, funkier more unique your hat is the more attention you tend to get. All of us leaned toward the classy, pretty and not so noticeable hats. Mine was brown with brown flowers on it. A larger brim b/c apparently the taller you are the bigger the hat you can pull off. At least that is what the store clerk told us when we were shopping for them. Anyway, I bought into it and got a pretty big hat. It was really pretty and once I had the hat I had the beginning of my outfit. I managed to find my dress that same day too. The brown satin one I mentioned in a previous post. And then I managed to get the shoes from hell - the cute brown satin ones I got online for a steal of $24.95 - Nine West. Um yeah, not such a deal afterall. Poor Luke spent the first two races putting new holes in them in order for them to stay on my feet!! Yeah, that's right MY feet! The size 11 skiis that I walk around on every day. They were strappy and cute, but the straps kept coming off and looked ridiculous. Thankfully, Luke took the time to poke new holes in them to force them to fit. After that they fit perfectly. Anyway, we usually get to the track about 10-10:30 in time for the first-second race. This year was no different.

We arrived at Churchill and got to our seats. Oh my goodness were they good! We were one box off of the track...in section 113. Katie's brother's wife's cousin is her connection to get tickets and she got us REALLY good ones. We had 4 tickets in one box and 2 in another. The other 2 were right ON the track. When we arrived to our seats we met our 'box' mates Mark and Ron. Ron was a 78year old man that has always wanted to go to the Derby and had never been. His kids got him that for Christmas...Mark, his son, really showed him a good time. They spent the day there Friday for the Oaks (in the rain) and then came back for Derby. I think Ron preferred the Derby. He liked the young ladies and kept telling us that he was a dirty old man. Laughing the whole time of course. He was great. And you could tell he had a great time. How couldn't you? The weather was perfect, the people were as always, beautiful, and you are experiencing history. That's why it's one of my favorite weekends every year. Well that, and the fact that it's one of very few traditions amongst my long-time friends. I love it. And this year was by far my favorite of them all. After the track we headed to Fourth Street Live. It is in downtown Louisville where they basically shut down the street and it's an open air bar/restaurant area. You can bop around from place to place, cocktail in hand without worrying. The coolest part was they had a live concert going on. The band was AWESOME! They played for 1.5hrs straight. We had an awesome time down there. Katie, Lance, Luke and I were down there the longest. We basically danced and hung out until the band took a break. Then it wsas off to the Smryna for a few drinks...Definitely the perfect close to the day.

So that was Derby 2008. Lots of laughs, lots of fun, a little sadness but overall a very nice time as always. Now it's time to prepare for summer. Memorial Weekend is just ahead. Boating season is just around the corner...I can't wait. I am ready. Ready for more fun, more laughs, more memories...

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Hump Day...

Ok so those of you that read my last post, I am ok. I got over my case of the Monday's and I am happy for it to be Hump Day! We are 1/2 way through another week already... Time sure does fly!

We took two of our furry kids to the vet last night. Bruno and Messiah. Bruno was going in to check his latest status out. He's lost 4 more lbs and has gotten much better since his new dose of antibiotics. She extended the prescription and also put him on a weight gainer dog food. 10lbs is $26! Thankfully the first bag was free but I'll be buying the next one. That dog I swear. It's a good thing he's cute! As for the little girl, we think she broke her toe. Or at least really bruised it badly. She was limping and not putting weight on her front right leg. So she came along and got put on antibiotics too. We all get to go back in two weeks for a check up and possible vaccinations...fun, fun, fun! After our appt. Luke and I stopped and ate dinner and then stopped and got all 4 of us vanilla ice cream cones from McDonalds. It was pretty cute watching them eat theirs.

Next week at this time I will be even happier b/c Thursday is my Friday...we leave for the Kentucky Derby Thursday night. I can't wait! The only thing I am waiting on is my purse. I have yet to track one down that is worthy of the outfit. I have the hat - the most important part of the outfit. The dress - a very sexy brown satin number and my shoes, strappy and brown satin to match of course. So now, I just need my purse...

This weekend we are watching our nephew Anderson for the weekend. His parents, Luke's sister Jessica and her husband Paul, are going to NY to visit Sean their brother and his family. We went back in December and had a very nice visit. It was great. They are going to have so much fun! And so are we! We are making plans to take the baby (he's almost 1) to the zoo. And we also have another surprise in store but that's top secret right now. Well a few people know, but I want to wait until I get pictures to post on that...

Anyway, again to those of you that read my last post and were concerned or sympathetic thank you :) I am out of my 'blah' mood and feeling much better. Happy Hump Day!

Monday, April 21, 2008

Case of the Monday's...

Wow. So it's Monday and I definitely have a case of the Monday's going on. Do you ever just feel blah? That's not a very good adjective, but I have been in this blah mood since yesterday...I didn't want to get up and come to work today. Though, I couldn't spend any more time in bed b/c that's pretty much all I did yesterday. As goregous as it was, all I did was lay in bed, watch movies and feel blah...

I know it'll go away, but in the mean time when I feel like this, I do a lot of self reflection. Not always a good thing to do when you are already feeling a little off. I don't know. I guess I am just trying to figure out why I am the way I am at times. Mostly, why I let the past influence my here and now as much as I do. It's true that you learn from your past, but at times, letting your past experiences influence the current situation isn't always for the best. Mostly what I am getting at is just b/c things turned out one way in one situation, doesn't mean that the same outcome is going to result now. I am probably not making any sense...

In a way I kind of feel like I am being punished for letting past experiences that have influenced or effected me, play a part in my life today. I guess you'd have to know what those are, but I am not really in the mood to share those. Mostly I just wanted to take a minute to jot down how I was feeling so I could figure out how to get out of the blah mood I am in. Betrayal can be a wicked thing that just never lets it's victims be whole again. That's where I am at. Throughout my adult life I have been betrayed or lied to on several occasions, so it's very difficult for me not to expect that now. I am very trusting. I have a hard time seeing the faults in those people that I care about. Or maybe not so much that I have a hard time seeing the faults, but I make excuses for them. I allow certain behaviors and as a result I get mad at myself when I do. I'll think or feel but not say anything to directly address the issue. I attribute it to the fact that I am afraid how they will react. I am afraid that b/c I share how I feel they may not agree and in turn rather then try to see my point or understand how or why I feel the way I do, they'll just close up, and go on about their own way. Never understanding that all I ever wanted in the first place was the best for them...If it weren't for my past I wouldn't be who or where I am today, however, at times that isn't always a good thing. Sometimes the past best be forgotten, but that is very difficult to do.

Anyway, BLAH. That is how I feel today. I know, I know, boo-hoo right? Like I said, I'll get over it but for now I am going through a case of the Monday's. Thankfully, Tuesday is just around the corner...

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

A year gone by...

Many of you don't know the story of how I came to have Lucas in my life so I thought I would take the time to share that one today.

A year ago yesterday, I was over at my friend Cathy's house getting my hair done. Yes, I am a natural blonde, but there is nothing wrong with enhancements...anyway, I was at Cathy's most of the afternoon into evening and then I left to go to my friend Laurie's house for dinner and a movie. I was running late - as usual - and I got to Laurie's after she and the family were almost done with dinner. Thankfully, they saved me a plate! After I scarfed my dinner, we were off to the movie theatre to see Blades of Glory. It's was Laurie's step-daughters b-day so we chaperoned a bunch of tweens....Anyway, as I was leaving Brighton I got a call from Cathy and another friend Lisa. They were up at a bar in town and wanted me to come up. So I did...

I met up with Cathy and Lisa at Stout in Brighton. After we had a drink or two, Lisa decided she didn't like the music they were playing and we needed to go somewhere else. They didn't know where, just somewhere besides Stout. I told them I should probably go home b/c I had been out all day. Cathy suggested we go to The Wrangler...(those of you that do not know, the Wrangler is a little hole in the wall bar in Howell. It's known for it's Friday night line dancing lessons, loud music and smoky atomosphere. It's great for people watching that is for sure). I was like 'No way! I am not going into that place!' I had been there once or twice for lunch when I worked in Howell but never in the evening. She was like, 'oh come on! Just for an hour, then you can go home.' She knows me and 'an hour' so she knew once I was there, I'd be fine she just had to get me there. I was like 'ohhh, I don't know...I really should get home...' Cathy had a way of coaxing you into things. She told me how much fun we'd have and that I just had to go with them...so off to the Wrangler we went.

We got there about 9:30-10:00 or so and wow! What a sight this place was. We walked into a cloud of smoke and made our way to a table in the middle of the place, near the bar. We chatted with a few people we met and had a couple beers. Before I knew it an hour had passed and I was still there...About 11:00 or so a group of guys walked in and I noticed two of them in particular. There was this really big guy that stood out and another one in a hooded sweatshirt. He walked by and I thought, hmmm, he's cute. After he passed and I dropped my gaze I went back to talking with the table. Eventually, the guy in the hooded sweatshirt walked by our table on his way back from the restroom and managed to elbow Cathy in the head. Not hard or on purpose or anything. It was crowded and she was laughing, and she tilted her head back just in time to catch his arm...He was very polite and apologized for running into her. The guy in the hooded sweatshirt turned out to be Lucas. Needless to say, we closed the Wrangler that night. All three of us girls had a great time. Luke was with a group of friends so we all started talking, laughing, dancing. The rest of the night we had a lot of fun.

And that is the story of how we met a year ago yesterday/today...

Monday, March 24, 2008

Spring is here. Right?

Well here we are March 24th, 2008. 4 days into Spring and snow on the ground. We got nailed with a snow storm on Friday. The 2nd day of spring and we get 3-5 inches of snow. I think this is Mother Nature's way of toying with us. It was beautiful, but we've had enough snow for now. I am ready for sun, warm air, open windows, sitting on the porch and green ANYTHING!

Speaking of green, I made a trip to KY for St. Patty's day weekend. We (Katie, Lance & I) drove down to visit the Morris and Keith families. We had a nice visit. The girls managed to buy our Derby hats and Katie and I got our dresses too! Now it's on to finding shoes...always fun for me with my skiis for feet :) We also went to the Highlands, an area of Louisville with lots of of Celtic bars. There was O'Shea's, the Dublin Tavern, Flannegans and Molly Malone's...to name a few. Our favorite spot for the weekend, besides the Keith's newly renovated basement, was the Smryna Inn. It's total local spot but we loved it. All in all a nice time was had by all.

This past weekend was Easter. That was slightly different this year. I am not sure if it was b/c it was so much earlier this year or what, but it just didn't feel like a holiday. We didn't really celebrate this year. Luke and I stayed home, I made a ham big enough for 12 people and it was just he and I for dinner. Needless to say, we'll be eating ham the rest of this week! Dinner was nice though. Earlier in the day we ventured to the neighbors house for a big Easter egg hunt that they put on every year. There were a lot of kids who were having a blast! It was fun to watch. And we brought our furry kids over so they could play with everyone. They loved it too. It was nice. And despite the snow the sun was out and the weather was pretty enjoyable.

After the hunt and dinner, Luke finished up hanging the fixtures we bought for the new and improved bathroom. It looks AWESOME! Every time I go in there I smile. It turned out so nice! The faucet gave Luke a run for his money...we picked out a really nice looking Delta faucet. It was perfect! Except it turned out to be junk! So after three trips to Lowe's he took it back and bought one at Home Depot. It looks great too AND he was able to put it in with minimal swearing :) Always a good thing...

Well that's the latest on this end. I'll post some pics of St. Patty's weekend and the bathroom shortly. More to come...Happy Monday!

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Bruno

So this is Bruno. He's my 3-yr old Weimaraner/GSP mix. I took this picture on my way home from Ohio the day I got him in 2005. Tuesday on the way to and from the vet, a much larger Bruno looked up at me the exact same way. :)
Turns out Bruno does have an infection that we have to treat, along with a few other issues. For the most part though, my biggest fear of a cancer or something worse has been put at ease. Luke recommended a new vet, Katherine, that I took him to at the Brighton Animal Hospital and she said that she's not worried that it was anything overly serious. She ran a few tests and prescribed three different drugs and requested a 'sample' to be brought back in for review...I am still working on collecting that...
He was so good at the vet's office. He laid at my feet just smelling everything. The air, the rugs, other dogs as they went by. He got all kinds of compliments for his behavior. Everyone was asking what kind of dog he was. I do have to say, my in home dog-whisperer has worked wonders with him. He has always been good in places where there are strange people, usually sticking with me and sitting close by. But Tuesday he was exceptional (and yes I am partial). During his exam he was such a trooper. Just stood there while he got poked and prodded. I was very impressed. And I wasn't the only one. The doctor and the nurse both commented on what a good boy he was!
So that's the update on my boy. So far he's ok. Any change, and I'll be talking about it I am sure.

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Spring Forward

We lost an hour today b/c of day light savings time. So now, rather then it being 3:30, it's 4:30. Making the weekend even shorter. I know the extra daylight will really be nice, but losing an hour and an already short weekend just isn't fun.

This weekend has been pretty low key. Today was spent going to Home Depot, Lowe's and Pier 1 in search for a mirror for our upstairs bathroom. Luke decided to re-do that while he was at Home Depot yesterday. He came home with a new toilet...Now he's spending the day installing the floor that we picked out today. When it's done it's going to look very nice, in the mean time there has been a lot of swearing going on upstairs and we haven't spoken to each other...I am staying out of his way, I know better. It needed some TLC. There are a lot of projects that we COULD do, but for now it's the littler ones that we'll probably focus on. When I get back from Kentucky next weekend I plan on painting the bathroom. We're going with a really cool blue. It's like a slate blue almost. It goes really well with the floor that we picked out.

Other then the bathroom not much going on today. It's been a pretty mellow Sunday. I am dreading the work week ahead but what's new? Oh, and I have to take Bruno to the vet b/c there is definitely something wrong with him. He is constantly peeing in his cage and he has a growth on his belly I want to get checked out. I REALLY hope it's not a big deal. The poor guy. He hasn't exactly had it easy during his 3 years. From his hernia as a puppy, the tumor on this head, various cuts and scrapes from just being clumsy...I hope that whatever it is, we can figure it out and get him fixed up. But I have to wait until Tuesday to find out so more then...

Well I am off to get dinner started. Sunday dinner. Roasted chicken, mashed potatoes, green beans, bread and for desssert berry crisp. Think spring, warm weather, sunshine, blooming flowers and green grass...a few more weeks and those might actually be here!

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Winter

Is it me or has this winter just been wicked? Normally I am a fan of winter. I LOVE snow. I love snomobiling, sledding, skiing, etc. Driving down a country road and seeing all of the trees covered in white and the sun bouncing off and sparkling all over is very high on the list of things that makes me smile. It sounds kind of over the top, but it's right on. It's beautiful. It's beautiful when you have no place to be but in a hot tub drinking a cocktail, or in a house cozied up to a fire...are you sensing where I am headed with this? The snow is WONDERFUL as long as you aren't commuting...

Today it took me 2.5 hrs to get to work. Again. Yes, that is correct, again. Last Friday it also took me over two hours to get to work. When you are driving up north 2 hrs is fine. Heck, 3 or 4 is still a decent ride. When you are driving to work though, 2 hrs is an eternity! And it just sets the mood for your entire day. In my case, the recent 2 hour commutes have really put a damper on my excitement about going to work.

Honestly, I think I just have an old fashioned case of cabin fever. I need a break. Sunshine. Warm air. Time to take a nap. Time to read a book. Time to do anything I want to do and nothing that I have to do...A vacation isn't going to happen any time soon, but it is definitely on my mind daily. I peruse the specials offered online. I look at my map in my office and think of all the places I'll go to. One day. Maybe not today. And probably not tomorrow, but definitely one day...

For today I'll go home and enjoy this winter weather by having a cocktail with my cutie, maybe something light and fruity, sit in the hot tub with the fountain on, close my eyes and pretend we are somewhere hot & sunny and listening to the waves or a waterfall relaxing...forgetting all about my drive to work and the fact that they are saying Friday is going to be the same way...Oh winter. Don't you just love it?

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Dogs



As I mentioned in an earlier post, we have four dogs in our house. I guess you could say that we are the 'Brady Bunch' family with dogs instead of kids. I had two dogs before meeting my boyfriend Luke and he had two dogs. When we decided to co-habitate that meant having four very large dogs in one house as opposed to two...


So needless to say, with all of that canine companionship we don't have a shortage of stories to tell. Whether it be stories of them playing together, fighting with one another, debating on which one is the best behaved...(honestly there's no question, the oldest boy Summit is the best. But he's had the longest to learn so I attribute it to that rather then him being superior to the others...) Anyway, last night and this AM we added to our dog stories...


For some reason, I couldn't sleep last night. After about 2:45 I was laying bed awake. And like I mentioned before, the dogs have a sense that you are awake and they are ALWAYS ready to go outside. Regardless of the weather. So there I lay at 2:45AM wishing I were asleep like Luke. When Bruno and Messiah started pacing the stairs and the downstairs wood floor. This went on for 20 minutes before I got so annoyed I finally went down and let them outside. I took the time to do my business and then went to the door to let them back in. 2 of the 3 came in no issue. But not Messiah - the baby. The golden child. The dog that can do no wrong. At least according to her father...Don't get me wrong, I love her to death, but I am not quite as biased about her perfection as Luke is. Anyway, I make my way out on to the porch to yell at her in the freezing March-in-Michigan weather in my tank top and underwear. I scream at her in my highest whisper - it is 3:00 in the AM and I doubt the neighbors want to hear me yelling at our dogs...so I whisper-scream and she looks up at me and just stands there. So I am really getting mad. I scream again and tell her to get her A$# in the house right now! She runs under the porch and hides...so eventually I coax her inside with a much sweeter whisper and head back up to bed. Thinking, ok good, I get to sleep for about 2 more hours. Except I couldn't get to sleep...I dozed off but then I thought I heard something downstairs. I ignored it and wrote it off as the dogs getting back in the places of slumber...


Well fast forward to 5:00 when it's time to get up. Luke went downstairs only to find that Messiah had chewed up one of my sandals that I wear to the gym. My shower shoe. Now this isn't the first time she has chewed things of mine. Bras (Victoria Secret bras), underwear (not sure what that's about), my coffee table!, our basement door, other shoes of mine...so there is a pattern. Anyway, today was probably the FUNNIEST. Luke started to reprimand her and she bolted upstairs. I was still laying in bed debating on whether I should go to the gym or TRY to get some sleep in the next 25 minutes...Well that decision was made for me. Miss came barreling upstairs with Luke right behind her. The light goes on and before I know it she is pouncing on my side of the bed right over my head. She is a 140lb Presa Canario people - not a poodle. A lot of dog. Anyway, she jumps over me, jumps off the bed and then repeats the action when she realizes Luke is right there waiting. Then she tried to hide under an end table. Her head was covered so she thought she was hidden. Except 3/4 of her was still hanging out in the open...All of the other dogs are just sitting there watching like WTF?? All they wanted to do was hop in bed with me like they do every morning after Luke gets up for work. Not today. Today we all got the show and I got my butt up and went to the gym. With a NEW pair of shower shoes...Thanks Miss. I appreciate it.

Monday, February 25, 2008

Old Friends...

Wow! Today I received a note from a dear friend of mine who I lost touch with a few years back. Nothing happened other than life to cause the split, so when I got her note this morning that she had found me on Facebook, I was ecstatic! We were great friends in high school. And the interesting part is as much as we were alike in many ways, we were also very different. At that time she was very much involved in a dedicated faith. One that did not condone watching TV, going to the movies, wearing make up, swearing, drinking, etc...Whereas I being Catholic, well pretty much anything goes. Within reason of course...

Anyway, Cyndi or 'Cecil' as our fifth hour Spanish teacher named her and I were great friends. In fact I managed to expose her to a lot of new things...and when I say expose, I mean that literally. I took her to the Naked Mile in Ann Arbor. A tradition for U of M students that involves streaking the town in the winter air...you can imagine what kind of shock that brought on! It was great! So yes, the Naked Mile, skipping school, challenging authority a bit etc are all things that I brought into Cecil's life.

There's a saying that someone I knew would say 'that people come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.' And determining which category people you meet fall into is up to you. For me, very few people have ever fallen under 'lifetime'. There's family of course. But as far as friends go I have a handful that I would consider 'lifetime' companions. And it's hard to make friends that deserve that 'lifetime' classification. So when you do, you really need to value that friendship and really give it your all to maintain it and never take it for granted. Cecil is a definite lifetimer. I know that no matter how much time would go by that she and I didn't speak or hear from one another, our memories would keep us company and make us laugh. And when we would speak again, it'd be just like it was when we left off that last time.

Lifetime friends are rare. Much like true love. I believe in both. If you are lucky enough in your lifetime to share true friendships and true love, then you have truly been blessed. And that I am. Because I have both...

Friday, February 22, 2008

Fridays

So today is a Friday. My second favorite day of the week only to Saturday...

Friday means another work week has just about come and gone and the weekend is just beginning. Lately Friday is what I get up for on Monday...it's not that I don't enjoy my job or the people I work with. Nor is it the fact that I don't realize every day how fortunate I am to have a great job to get up and go to. It's just lately it seems like week after week very little changes, except on the weekends. My weekday routine, which is exactly is what it has become, routine, is pretty much the same. Quite honestly though I am happy about that but when you get into a routine sometimes you question if that's enough or if you should be doing something different... At least I do. Something I need to learn - to savor the fact that I have a routine rather then think something is wrong with that. Especially having one that is so positive and enjoyable.

My routine -
Monday - alarm goes off about 5:00AM. Slightly thereafter our bed is surrounded by our dogs (those that are not aware, we have 4, yes 4, dogs in our house - and not little 'kickable' dogs either) all of whom are morning dogs, and are more then ready to sprint into the frigid winter air once they hear the click of the alarm clock being shut off. Get up, let the dogs out, get my lunch ready, get stuff pulled out for dinner that night, prep my bag for the gym, brush my teeth, let the dogs in and then hit the gym. Work out (which quite honestly I enjoy on the mornings I actually do force myself up this early), hit the shower, get ready for work and start my commute. I work about 43 miles from home, but it takes on average over an hour to get to work every day. I often use this time to think, plan, daydream. Sometimes though I have road rage casuing my day to start off on the wrong foot. Which those of you that commute, I am sure you can relate to...

Anyway, I get to work, which in itself is pretty routine, around 12:00 I take lunch, and around 5:00 I head home. Get home (after yet another commute), immediately change into sweats or something comfortable and start dinner for the night. Eat dinner, catch up on our days events and happenings, as well as any gossip we may have heard, then watch TV and hit the sack by about 9:00 (and sometimes that's a late night)...

Tue-Thurs - repeat Monday's routine.

But Friday. Ah, Friday...is a whole another ball game. Friday means, sleeping in the next day. Friday means, getting home, relaxing, having a few cocktails and a nice meal after work - and that's the start of the evening...Friday means, two whole days of doing whatever, whenever we want to...